Romanticize?
Still sitting at Bondi Beach. This couple has been making out in front of me for about 30 minutes. Trying to not be a creep but dang.. are we looking at the Eiffel Tower or what!? Jk I’m actually jealous of them. Seagulls are flying around.. and not in an annoying way. Waves are crashing.
I sit here.. before writing.. almost making fun of myself for writing and romanticizing the things that I have been seeing… I mean.. there is a part of Zack that has a sense of humor that allowsZack to make fun of himself… but also others?… for Doing the same thing? For instance… I am looking at myself from a third person sometimes.. seeing myself sitting somewhere.. romanticizing the way a bird is flying in the wind… and how Zack is illustrating on paper what that visual looks like to him. Or how he’s describing a caterpillar on a leaf in a mountain creek in the states… am I just making these things beautiful? Am I exaggerating what I’m seeing to just… create…
I think there has been some instances in my past where maybe I have.. look at what I’m looking at… “wow, zack really appreciates the natural things in life!”. “He’s so different”
I think in a younger version it was definitely a way to showcase that I was different or that I was more than what meets the eye… it all goes back to connection. A yearning for connection and understanding. I know where this writing is going to go if I don’t pause for a sec. Pause.
Unpause… Dissect the Bird by John Craigie
“They call them first world problems, but they still break your heart
The universe feels like it's against you
Just take a minute to realize, all it took to make you
Your parents had to meet, as random as that was
And hang out long enough, at least, to make some love
And make a baby, and give it your name
And all your ancestors had to do the same exponentially backwards
To the start of life
So much had to happen, just exactly right
Sparks had to catch, oceans had to freeze
Billions of cells had to survive, endless disease
Civilizations had to crumble, wars had to be fought
Bad presidents had to get elected, good presidents had to get shot
People had to leave, hearts had to get broken
People had to die, just so your eyes could open
The universe is not against you
The universe is not against you, it went through a lot
Just to give you a chance, it must've wanted you
Pretty bad
No pressure though, no pressure though
The universe went through a lot but no pressure, bro
You don't gotta be perfect, you don't gotta be a saint
Just don't waste it, this was not a mistake”
Tonight continued..
